Developed some more film over the past couple of days. The first roll isn’t too bad! Looking forward to scanning some more film over the weekend. I have had many questions about developing film. It is a lot easier than one might think. The first experience I had with developing film was in middle school. I was lucky enough to be in the year book class. SO we got to go around and shoot all the photographs for the year book. I can’t remember what type of camera we had or even the film we used. But it was so cool walking around photographing everyone. The next time I set foot in a darkroom was years later when I went to college. Every Mass Communications major had to take photography. I am working now on getting a darkroom together. I have an enlarger and have told myself that I will start making prints this year! The sooner…. the better.
I have been thinking quite a bit lately about choice. Such a huge part of our everyday lives, but something I don’t think people think about often. Looking back at my life, I think about the choices I have made. The good and the bad. What has been intriguing me as of late is the long term effects of our choices and decisions in life. How much would even the littlest decision cause a huge change down the road. Also how the decisions and choices I make can change someone else’s life. I look at myself. So many decisions made by other people… parents, teachers, friends… some big and some little, have all had an outcome to make up the person who I am today. I think of my third grade teacher Mrs. Slack who wanted me to take the behavior disorder test knowing it was the same test to place gifted students. I did well, and that single decision changed my life.
Start thinking about the choices and decisions you are making. You never know what could come of them.
I have always loved traveling. I have always loved traveling shows. I used to watch episodes of Globe Trekker and wonder what it would be like to visit all those places. Of course Anthony Bourdain was a must to watch. Not just Parts Unknown, but going back all the way to A Cook’s Tour and No Reservations. Last night as I was sitting watching old Globe Trekker videos on YouTube, I came to realize how much traveling has become a part of my life and what it means to me.
There is something about traveling and seeing another place and experiencing another culture. It does something to you. It changes you. Now every couple of months I get an itch to travel again. To go explore and see new things. I have been blessed over the past 6 or 7 years to be able to travel internationally. If you can or ever wanted too… DO IT!
But also don’t be afraid to get out and explore. If you don’t feel like traveling to another country or are anxious about it, do what I did. I started taking road trips. Not long, just a couple hours away. Checking out towns and museums all over Kansas. Then, I visited places around the United States. New York, Washington, DC, Seattle, Portland, Houston. The more you see and the learn the more you want to see and learn more. So go out and travel. Explore different places and be a part of different things. I have so many places I want to see, and so little time. The hardest part of traveling is deciding where to go next!
This year I am making an effort to go to more local hip-hop shows. I went to a couple last year, but I see more and more that they are happening and getting larger crowds. I think back 20 years ago and how cool it is to see an entire new generation throwing their own shows and creating music. But recently I feel this energy around the town. I can’t quit put my finger on it but it is an energy I haven’t felt in quite a bit. All the pieces are coming together for some special events this year. I am already hearing about some great shows on the horizon. I took some photos at the concerts and parties when I was younger but not near enough. Around 2014 I made sure to take a camera with me whenever I went to a show. This time around, I want to make sure to document everything!
I often hear people talk about work-life balance. For some reason it has either been in conversations I have had or I have over heard it come up quite a bit in the last couple months. Not sure why. Maybe people are getting over worked. Maybe everyone is looking for more balance in their life. Is there such a thing though? Can you be balanced in both work and life? I guess that depends on each person and how they define it. Work-life balance sounds like once of those scary terms that you can never truly attain. Eternal Bliss… Nirvana… Clear state of mind. I also don’t know what I would do if I had a balanced my work and personal life. I doubt I would like it.
The older I get the less I believe in coincidence. Everything happens for a reason. Sometimes it can be explained, sometimes it can not. I had one of those moments today. I was shopping at Hobby Lobby with my wife. I was walking around looking at some art supplies when I started noticing the music. It was a instrumental version of a old church hymn. It reminded me of a song that my grandmother wanted played at my mother’s memorial service. “To God Be The Glory”. About a minute into the song all the power went out. For 5 seconds it was completely dark in Hobby Lobby. All you could hear was the audible gasp and “Whooooooaaaaaaa”, from everyone who was walking around. The lights came on and I found Brandi. I told her that right before the lights went off a song was playing that reminded me of “To God Be The Glory”. Now, in the time the power came back on and from I found Brandi, no had started to play. Which I figured took some time to get everything up and running again. We walked around a couple more minutes as the music began when I stopped and said, ‘Brandi!”. She looked at me a bit shocked. I pointed to the ceiling where the music was coming from and told her, “That is the song! To God Be The Glory!”. Which it was. Coincidence? I think not.
Every now and then I come across something that makes me stop and think for a bit. I saw this written on the sidewalk in Galveston. MEAT IS MURDER! My first thought had something to do with food. I instantly thought about The Smiths album by the same name. Could this person have great taste in music, or a vegan? Who knows… maybe both. Over the past couple years I have been trying to eat healthier. Some months I east very clean and healthy, others.. not so much. At the high point of good eating I was vegan or a week. It is the best I have felt in the last 20 years. I would love to get back to eating vegan or vegetarian, but the 3-4 weeks of weening off meat is hell. Since the holidays have passed I have been trying to eat better. Only took 48 hours for the headaches from sugar with drawl to kick it. So maybe in the next couple months I will be able to get back to eating vegan again. Yes.. meat is murder… but it does taste damn good.
Got off starting the year in Galveston, Texas. It is wonderful to ring in the new year, but even better when you can wake up and walk the beach! I used to make resolutions for new years, but the older I get the less I do it. I just want to keep focusing on learning and growing as a person. Rang in the beginning of the year shooting quite a lot of film. Want to focus on shooting more and documenting as much as I can. It is always a bit of a struggle getting out and photographing in the winter. Mainly because it is either too cold or not much going on. But no excuses right? There are some events that I want to get out and get some photos. So here are some photos from the very first couple of rolls of film I processed!
Working on some updates for the website and will soon be setting up a newsletter so you can always keep up to date on what is going on. Going through a lot of my photos I have taken over the years. Want to put up some of the projects I am working on as well as put some of my newer photos in the street photography section. Looking forward to shooting quite a bit in the new year. Also be on the lookout for my next zine! I have been thinking of ideas and am starting to cycle through some of the photographs to get the sequencing down. Until then… you can order my latest zine by clicking the link below!
I must say that 2018 was so fulfilling. Was able to travel to Montreal, Rome and did something that I have been wanting to do for awhile. Make a zine! The first of many. Already have some ideas for my next one which I will be putting together at the beginning of next year. Shot a lot of film this year. Looking forward to capturing more moments, people, places and things in 2019!