I have been going through some of my old photos. Looking at the hip-hop events, shows and people who attended around Wichita. Some are still with us, some aren’t. Feel very blessed to have been at the shows and events. Even more grateful that I was able to document them. So many times we have experiences and I hear people say, “I wish I would have taken a photo.” Well let me tell you, I try to make sure I take photos. You never know who might be there and who you might run into. So make sure and snap a photo or two next time you are out.
Started a new book by Gary Keller called “The One Thing”. The premise of the book is that most people focus on way too many things at once. If you want extraordinary results, focus on one thing at a time. Seems to be a problem with a lot of people right now. We all want so many things. I just talked to a young person who wanted to go into radio, be a photographer, fashion designer and making YouTube videos. I wanted to tell him that he should focus on one thing first. How can we get good at something if we are focusing on so many different things? Results take time. So does learning whatever craft you want to master. So take your time. Focus on one thing at a time, and let one success flow into the other. Identify what is most important to you, put on the blinders and put all your focus into it. You won’t be disappointed.
At the beginning of the year I had a goal. To average one roll of film every day. That means I am trying to shoot 365 rolls of film this year! So far I am up to about 23 rolls. Which is great, but I am falling behind. The hardest part is during the week. Much of time is spent in a radio studio or production room. So getting out is the hard part. Luckily I got out some over the weekend and was able to shoot some rolls. I will say when it gets warmer I am able to get in a lot more shooting. So for this early in the year I am doing pretty good. Here are some photos I took recently.
Every now and then I come across someone or something that I have to get a photo of. Something so out fo the ordinary that I know I will never see it happen again. That happened two me in 2014. I was walking around downtown Wichita during Riverfest. I turned and saw the Wichita State University mascot Wu Shock. It normally wouldn’t be out of the norm, but what caught me off guard was a guy sitting next to him. He was having a full on conversation with Wu Shock. Only problem is Wu Shock doesn’t talk. The guy was just talking and talking. Asking questions that were yes or no, but questions like, “How is your day going?” “What time did you get here?” Somehow they had a connection. It was pretty awesome to watch.
Every time I drive across town on the highway I look up. As I drive under a overpass I am looking for a quote. It says, “The Journey IS The Reward - Anonymous”. Such a true comment. But why does it hit so close to home for me? I think that for so long I wasn’t paying attention. Overlooking what is most important… which is the journey. The journey called life. I started taking more time to sit back and focus on being in the moment. Not about the past or the future, but about now. I see so many people passing through life, but not taking time to enjoy it. We run the race, run the race, run the race… then at the end of life we realize, there is no race. Over the years I have passed under that quote and thought about it a hundred times. It took me awhile, but now I finally understand. It is all about the journey.
After hearing so much about Game Of Thrones I finally watched the series. I must admit, the show is amazing. But once the dragons showed up in the series I started thinking. How cool would it be if dragons were real!? Just imagine looking up in the sky and seeing an animal the size of an airplane soaring through the skies. But then so many questions come up. Would they be wild or could you tame them and raise them as pets? Where would they live? Could they last and survive in cold weather climates? Then, I also had to take in consideration the fire breathing. Would it be a good thing to have an animal that could incinerate an entire building in one breath? Probably not. I could see dragons being used in wars and to hurt people. And don’t they hoard gold and riches? So, maybe it is good that dragons aren’t real. I am sure somewhere a scientist is trying to cross a lizard with a bird to create one. Who knows? Maybe someday there will be one.
I’m not sure why, but I have came to the conclusion that the best $15 I have spent in a long time was for a lava lamp. I placed it in the production studio that I spend most, if not all of my time in. I sit and watch it daily. Not sure why watching a more dense liquid floating around inside a less dense liquid is so cool. But it is! If you have a high stress job… get a lava lamp. If you hate your job…. get a lava lamp. If you want to be the cool person at work… get a lava lamp. It puts a smile on my face daily. Might just do the same for you.
This is an upstairs window in my house. I sit and look out it quite a bit. Watch the sunrise, think about the future and day dream. Not sure what it is, but I could sit and look out the window for hours. In high school whenever I had a class on the third floor I would sit and daydream throughout the entire class. Became more of a meditation than anything else. I don’t think people take time and daydream enough. Some of my best thoughts have come from daydreaming. Take some time today, sit, relax and daydream. You will thank me for it later.
Went out a couple nights ago to the latest venue in town call The Wave. Saw the Nappy Roots perform. It is always nice to get out and check out the shows around town. Always felt it was important to go and support. I remember the days when there weren’t many places you could go to hear hip-hop much less see a show. Grateful to see more shows and more variety around the town. The turnout looked great and the vibes all totally positive from everyone. I spent most of my time hanging out in the back watching the crowd. I tend to do that more and more. It is interesting to see what type of crowd comes out to a show. Looking froward to the next hip-hop show there!
What keeps some people motivated and others not. I try to ask myself that, and also ask myself what keeps me motivated. What is more important is asking the question why. Why do things keep me motivated. I don’t think people truly ask themselves why when it comes to motivation. Not enough as they should. Some motivation comes from a positive place, but it can also come from negative. Fear, ego, hate, insecurity. All reasons that motivate people. I can say for myself that when my motivations and intentions are positive and come from a good place then the fulfillment is more than if I would have had poor motivations. Ask yourself today or whenever you read this. What motivates you and are the intentions behind the motivation coming from the right place?
Old man winter has definitely been showing up this winter. Seems like it has been snowing a lot more than last year. I don’t too much mind the snow. It doesn’t keep me inside like some people. If anything I will go out because I know there won’t be as many people out as usual. With one week left in January I am counting down the days to warmer weather. The only problem… some of the biggest snows have been in Mach and April the past couple years. So even though I know there is still a couple months (or more) or cold and possible snow, I am hoping warmer weather comes sooner than later.
I could eat candy for breakfast, lunch and dinner. People laugh when I tell them I am a chocolate and candy addict, but it is true in so many ways. I love the way it tastes. The little rush you get when the sugar gets into your blood stream. Nothing better. I was able to quit eating candy for awhile. About 4 months to be exact. I had to do it cold turkey. There is no weening off or having a cheat day. I am all or nothing. The older I get the less I can eat and the less I want to eat. But… it still tastes so good. Getting my mind geared up to get off candy and sweets again. You know what they say… summer bodies are made in the winter.
While I was sitting at home sick with the flu bored out of my mind I decided to start watching Game Of Thrones. Sure beat what was in daytime television. So far, so good. Takes me back to all the times going to the renaissance fairs growing up. I still go! Never dressed up though. Doubt I ever will. Never say never though!
I am reading a new book called, “Essentialism: The Disciplined Pursuit of Less. It is one of those books that I will most likely break out at minimum once a year from now one. Just to go back and refresh myself on everything that was brought up. So far one of the major points is to stop trying to do everything. A person can make their highest contribution towards the things that really matter to them when they choose not to deal with everything else. Narrow your options to focus on what really matters.
How many people do you know that are trying to do too many things or focus on too much. They end up not getting anything done. When they do, if they were to put all their focus into what they truly cared about the outcome out have been so much better. I think of myself and my own life. How can I focus and narrow what I want to focus on at work and family life. I can not be everything to everybody. Nor would I want to be. I can honestly say that a handful of thing truly matter to me. Not clothes, fame, money or even success. Family, photography, traveling and being a good person. That is what truly matters to me. So I give myself permission to stop trying to pursue everything and just the things that truly matter to me.
My grandfather always used to tell me, “Love, Loves Nobody.” I never quite knew what that meant. It was this three word mystery that only he knew. Almost like he was talking in code. He would say, “One day you will understand.” As I have grown older I have thought about that statement a lot. And I still don’t quite know what he means. Maybe he was saying just because you love someone, doesn’t always mean they will love you back. It could mean that falling in love with someone often has negative outcomes. Who knows? It is a very sad statement though. Tells quite a bit about a person and how they view the people they have loved in their life. I know now that “Love, Loves Nobody” has a different meaning for every person. As for me, I still don’t know if my grandfather’s saying is true. So far I would say no. Thank goodness.
Do you remember your dreams? The older I get the less I do. Every time I wake up I can tell I have been dreaming. But for some reason I can’t remember what or even what the dream pertained to. I do know this, lately I have been dreaming quite a bit. Anymore the dreams I do remember are the ones closest to real life. I will be dreaming I am working and on air at the radio station. The only difference is I will be in a bigger market or different radio station. Every now and then I dream about people from my past. I still have scary dreams. I can tell because I wake up tense or with anxiety. I have also found out that sometimes when I wake up I am still dreaming. I might wake up and ask the most random question or not make sense at all.
The big question is… what are the meaning to our dreams? Is there a meaning at all? Is it tapping into another part of our mind or consciousness.? There is part of me that doesn’t think dreams have any meaning, but then there is a part of me that believes that dreams are deeper than anyone might ever know. It might tell us something about our existence. It could be a way to float into different dimensions or maybe even be a way to pass through time and space itself. Who knows? Hopefully tonight I dream of the answer, I just hope I don’t forget it in the morning.
One thing I love about radio is two days are never the same. You never know what might happen day to day. The fun times are when we as a staff get out and about and do events. We had a fun one at a middle school where we honored the '“Super Car Kid" of he year. 500 screaming kids was a bit intense, but it was fun. Until you get out and do some events you can never quite understand what it is like to be in radio. The bigger the event, the better. Some of my funnest times in radio where standing back stage in an arena watching people enjoy a show that we all planned and worked on for months. Doesn't get any better than that.
That is right. My new place of zen is the laundry mat. Let me start off by saying I hate doing laundry. I don’t just hate it, I despise it. I never take the time to separate whites and colors and I cant fold a t-shirt to save my life. I thin if I were to ever be sentenced to an eternity of hell after my life comes to an end it would be doing laundry with country music playing in the background. So why might you ask is the laundry mat my new zen place? Well for a couple reasons. First, as I stated before I hate doing laundry. It takes me about 4 days to do 3 loads. So by going to the laundry mat it forces me to get it done. I have a perfectly good working washer and dryer in my basement but in 1 quick hour at the laundry mat using multiple washers and dryers I can get done with all my clothes. Second, it gets me out of the house. Today was a nasty cold winter day, but I had to get the laundry done. I hate sitting in the house all day. So if I can kill two birds with one stone, get out the house AND get my laundry done then I consider that a win-win situation. Most importantly it is a little get away. I chill, put in my headphones relax for an hour and people watch. There are always so many interesting people there. Young, old, well to do and poor. Some people are doing an entire months worth bringing in bag after bag of clothes. Others washing there pricey curtains or comforters in the big industrial washers set on delicate. If you haven’t been to the laundry mat in awhile, time some time out of your busy schedule and go. IF you have never been to a laundry mat to wash your clothes… then you just don’t know what you are missing.
I was out shopping with Brandi today when I came across a four foot statue of Buddha. IF I would have had the money and space for it, I would have bought it. Quite often I try to think about Buddha’s four noble truths, and having a four foot statue staring at me every time would help keep it on my mind. I you are not sure up to speed on the Four Noble Truths they are as follows.
Life is suffering. - Are lives are a struggle. And we as humans can not find ultimate happiness or satisfaction in anything we experience.
2. Life is suffering because of craving and attachment. - We will NEVER be able to satisfy all our cravings. A bigger house, more money, always wanting to be the best at something. Our ego is desire and keeps us in a state of constant suffering.
3. Put and end to our ego and craving, we will put and end to our suffering.
4. The path to end suffering is the Eight Fold Path. - Living a balanced life will help end the suffering.
End the desire, end the suffering. Sounds easy. But I find it is extremely hard. But every time time I have ended or tamed my desire and my ego, I have felt so much better in the long run. Do I need a new car? Should I be eating all this candy and junk food? Do I need the most expensive clothes? Do I ned a lot of clothes? OF course the answer is no to all of them. There is so much suffering in the world today. Why shouldn’t we all at least try to end the suffering we can control, which is our own.
Developed some more film over the past couple of days. The first roll isn’t too bad! Looking forward to scanning some more film over the weekend. I have had many questions about developing film. It is a lot easier than one might think. The first experience I had with developing film was in middle school. I was lucky enough to be in the year book class. SO we got to go around and shoot all the photographs for the year book. I can’t remember what type of camera we had or even the film we used. But it was so cool walking around photographing everyone. The next time I set foot in a darkroom was years later when I went to college. Every Mass Communications major had to take photography. I am working now on getting a darkroom together. I have an enlarger and have told myself that I will start making prints this year! The sooner…. the better.