Been slacking the last couple of days. Been traveling and working. Got back form Puerto Vallarta, Mexico last week. It was an amazing trip. The food and drinks were cheap. The scenery was beautiful. The people were friendly and warming. I am ready to go back! I was able to get some photo taking in while I was there. Shot ten rolls of film. Still processing them, but here are some of my favorites so far. You can also check out more photos from Puerto Vallarta by click the link right below this. IT is good to be back back blogging!
I have been going through some of my old photos. Looking at the hip-hop events, shows and people who attended around Wichita. Some are still with us, some aren’t. Feel very blessed to have been at the shows and events. Even more grateful that I was able to document them. So many times we have experiences and I hear people say, “I wish I would have taken a photo.” Well let me tell you, I try to make sure I take photos. You never know who might be there and who you might run into. So make sure and snap a photo or two next time you are out.
This is an upstairs window in my house. I sit and look out it quite a bit. Watch the sunrise, think about the future and day dream. Not sure what it is, but I could sit and look out the window for hours. In high school whenever I had a class on the third floor I would sit and daydream throughout the entire class. Became more of a meditation than anything else. I don’t think people take time and daydream enough. Some of my best thoughts have come from daydreaming. Take some time today, sit, relax and daydream. You will thank me for it later.
My grandfather always used to tell me, “Love, Loves Nobody.” I never quite knew what that meant. It was this three word mystery that only he knew. Almost like he was talking in code. He would say, “One day you will understand.” As I have grown older I have thought about that statement a lot. And I still don’t quite know what he means. Maybe he was saying just because you love someone, doesn’t always mean they will love you back. It could mean that falling in love with someone often has negative outcomes. Who knows? It is a very sad statement though. Tells quite a bit about a person and how they view the people they have loved in their life. I know now that “Love, Loves Nobody” has a different meaning for every person. As for me, I still don’t know if my grandfather’s saying is true. So far I would say no. Thank goodness.
Developed some more film over the past couple of days. The first roll isn’t too bad! Looking forward to scanning some more film over the weekend. I have had many questions about developing film. It is a lot easier than one might think. The first experience I had with developing film was in middle school. I was lucky enough to be in the year book class. SO we got to go around and shoot all the photographs for the year book. I can’t remember what type of camera we had or even the film we used. But it was so cool walking around photographing everyone. The next time I set foot in a darkroom was years later when I went to college. Every Mass Communications major had to take photography. I am working now on getting a darkroom together. I have an enlarger and have told myself that I will start making prints this year! The sooner…. the better.
I have been thinking quite a bit lately about choice. Such a huge part of our everyday lives, but something I don’t think people think about often. Looking back at my life, I think about the choices I have made. The good and the bad. What has been intriguing me as of late is the long term effects of our choices and decisions in life. How much would even the littlest decision cause a huge change down the road. Also how the decisions and choices I make can change someone else’s life. I look at myself. So many decisions made by other people… parents, teachers, friends… some big and some little, have all had an outcome to make up the person who I am today. I think of my third grade teacher Mrs. Slack who wanted me to take the behavior disorder test knowing it was the same test to place gifted students. I did well, and that single decision changed my life.
Start thinking about the choices and decisions you are making. You never know what could come of them.
I have always loved traveling. I have always loved traveling shows. I used to watch episodes of Globe Trekker and wonder what it would be like to visit all those places. Of course Anthony Bourdain was a must to watch. Not just Parts Unknown, but going back all the way to A Cook’s Tour and No Reservations. Last night as I was sitting watching old Globe Trekker videos on YouTube, I came to realize how much traveling has become a part of my life and what it means to me.
There is something about traveling and seeing another place and experiencing another culture. It does something to you. It changes you. Now every couple of months I get an itch to travel again. To go explore and see new things. I have been blessed over the past 6 or 7 years to be able to travel internationally. If you can or ever wanted too… DO IT!
But also don’t be afraid to get out and explore. If you don’t feel like traveling to another country or are anxious about it, do what I did. I started taking road trips. Not long, just a couple hours away. Checking out towns and museums all over Kansas. Then, I visited places around the United States. New York, Washington, DC, Seattle, Portland, Houston. The more you see and the learn the more you want to see and learn more. So go out and travel. Explore different places and be a part of different things. I have so many places I want to see, and so little time. The hardest part of traveling is deciding where to go next!
I often hear people talk about work-life balance. For some reason it has either been in conversations I have had or I have over heard it come up quite a bit in the last couple months. Not sure why. Maybe people are getting over worked. Maybe everyone is looking for more balance in their life. Is there such a thing though? Can you be balanced in both work and life? I guess that depends on each person and how they define it. Work-life balance sounds like once of those scary terms that you can never truly attain. Eternal Bliss… Nirvana… Clear state of mind. I also don’t know what I would do if I had a balanced my work and personal life. I doubt I would like it.
The older I get the less I believe in coincidence. Everything happens for a reason. Sometimes it can be explained, sometimes it can not. I had one of those moments today. I was shopping at Hobby Lobby with my wife. I was walking around looking at some art supplies when I started noticing the music. It was a instrumental version of a old church hymn. It reminded me of a song that my grandmother wanted played at my mother’s memorial service. “To God Be The Glory”. About a minute into the song all the power went out. For 5 seconds it was completely dark in Hobby Lobby. All you could hear was the audible gasp and “Whooooooaaaaaaa”, from everyone who was walking around. The lights came on and I found Brandi. I told her that right before the lights went off a song was playing that reminded me of “To God Be The Glory”. Now, in the time the power came back on and from I found Brandi, no had started to play. Which I figured took some time to get everything up and running again. We walked around a couple more minutes as the music began when I stopped and said, ‘Brandi!”. She looked at me a bit shocked. I pointed to the ceiling where the music was coming from and told her, “That is the song! To God Be The Glory!”. Which it was. Coincidence? I think not.
Got off starting the year in Galveston, Texas. It is wonderful to ring in the new year, but even better when you can wake up and walk the beach! I used to make resolutions for new years, but the older I get the less I do it. I just want to keep focusing on learning and growing as a person. Rang in the beginning of the year shooting quite a lot of film. Want to focus on shooting more and documenting as much as I can. It is always a bit of a struggle getting out and photographing in the winter. Mainly because it is either too cold or not much going on. But no excuses right? There are some events that I want to get out and get some photos. So here are some photos from the very first couple of rolls of film I processed!
Working on some updates for the website and will soon be setting up a newsletter so you can always keep up to date on what is going on. Going through a lot of my photos I have taken over the years. Want to put up some of the projects I am working on as well as put some of my newer photos in the street photography section. Looking forward to shooting quite a bit in the new year. Also be on the lookout for my next zine! I have been thinking of ideas and am starting to cycle through some of the photographs to get the sequencing down. Until then… you can order my latest zine by clicking the link below!